Sunday, July 31, 2011

Still. . . .

So tired. Trying to take a nap but no luck. Threw up in car this, that was fun, did go watch girls beat sdsu, that was nice to see.
I just want to be over this, feel better and not be sick anymore but I guess that is not a part of my journey. Don't really understand this and I guess I'm just not meant to, but I can't seem to get over this mini pity party I've been having so I hope with another good nights sleep it will pass soon.

Friday, July 29, 2011


Ok, went to bfast with bubba and still couldn't eat. Tried a small jamba, two sips upset my stomach.
Gonna try a choco shake...that should do the trick I think....I hope...
It better, it will. Yeah

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Today. . . .

Has to be better right? Been up since aBout 2am....watched tv then slept for a couple of hours. This is so hard feeling like this.
I've felt crappy before but I can't get back to feeling like myself and this is so hard for me.
make me tired and crabby, not hungry...everything tastes too salty now. I just feel like crying...again

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Is. . . .

It Friday yet?
So tired and crabby today. I need to get a good nights sleep.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

So. . . .

The bastard that fired me last year has not done a damn thing he has been waiting for me to die, piece of shit I,m not going anywhere

It's. . .

A big yeah today. That's about it. I just want to feel like I did before, I know I said this yesterday but truth be told, I just don't feel good n my skin.

Monday, July 25, 2011

Ok. . . . I,m back

I don't even know where to start. It seems that last week inhad a seizure and ended up in the hospital where I lost nine days. No lie, anint brain cancer just grand? Having another MRI on Monday then results on thursday, but what it appears to be is new tumor which will mean Yeats another gamma knife, and incan totally do it. I don,t want want to but I will do what needs to be done. How do I feel?hmmmm no appitite not the worst thing but I,m pooped and just trying to feel like a normal person...what ever the he'll that is.
So I,m in icu at hospital and this little 20 yr old bitch of a nurse doesn't like the fact that igot out of bad and kept asking for a phone to call my husband, next thing I know she's on top of me and we are going at it. I,m so gonna get her. Oncology floor way better nurses great, care just so much I said once I feel up to it I,m taking her out.
As for now so tired gonna go to bed soon. It's like 6:40 pm