It Friday yet?
So tired and crabby today. I need to get a good nights sleep.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
So. . . .
The bastard that fired me last year has not done a damn thing he has been waiting for me to die, piece of shit I,m not going anywhere
It's. . .
A big yeah today. That's about it. I just want to feel like I did before, I know I said this yesterday but truth be told, I just don't feel good n my skin.
Sigh
Sigh
Monday, July 25, 2011
Ok. . . . I,m back
I don't even know where to start. It seems that last week inhad a seizure and ended up in the hospital where I lost nine days. No lie, anint brain cancer just grand? Having another MRI on Monday then results on thursday, but what it appears to be is new tumor which will mean Yeats another gamma knife, and incan totally do it. I don,t want want to but I will do what needs to be done. How do I feel?hmmmm no appitite not the worst thing but I,m pooped and just trying to feel like a normal person...what ever the he'll that is.
So I,m in icu at hospital and this little 20 yr old bitch of a nurse doesn't like the fact that igot out of bad and kept asking for a phone to call my husband, next thing I know she's on top of me and we are going at it. I,m so gonna get her. Oncology floor way better nurses great, care just so much better...like I said once I feel up to it I,m taking her out.
As for now so tired gonna go to bed soon. It's like 6:40 pm
So I,m in icu at hospital and this little 20 yr old bitch of a nurse doesn't like the fact that igot out of bad and kept asking for a phone to call my husband, next thing I know she's on top of me and we are going at it. I,m so gonna get her. Oncology floor way better nurses great, care just so much better...like I said once I feel up to it I,m taking her out.
As for now so tired gonna go to bed soon. It's like 6:40 pm
Friday, May 27, 2011
Well. . . .
tomorrow is the 28th of May.
It's been one year since we discovered the golf ball sized tumor in my head.
I type this and look at it and it's like it doesn't register.
I look at myself in the mirror, my hair is growing back, I feel along the scar behind and above my right ear. I can feel the unevenness of my skull, it's bumpy and no longer smooth.
So I know that it's all real, it really happened and I'm still here.
What year though!
Before my Eye Dr. found this, I was falling down, throwing up, dizzy, terrible headaches, neck aches, and a weird circle of light in my right eye...I was having so much fun!
Since then, I've had three Gamma Knife procedures...and now I have the lovely pits on my forehead from where they screwed the Halo in or on??
And then the joy of Whole Brain Radiation, now that was fun.
I don't miss my tumor, I'm glad its gone thanks to Dr.Chen and his amazing skills.
The steroids gone, and so are about 30 lbs. thank god!
So I'd say about another 25 lbs will be about right, I'm walking every day and for the most part I feel pretty good.
Just Glad to be here!
Time will tell, next Brain MRI June 13
It's been one year since we discovered the golf ball sized tumor in my head.
I type this and look at it and it's like it doesn't register.
I look at myself in the mirror, my hair is growing back, I feel along the scar behind and above my right ear. I can feel the unevenness of my skull, it's bumpy and no longer smooth.
So I know that it's all real, it really happened and I'm still here.
What year though!
Before my Eye Dr. found this, I was falling down, throwing up, dizzy, terrible headaches, neck aches, and a weird circle of light in my right eye...I was having so much fun!
Since then, I've had three Gamma Knife procedures...and now I have the lovely pits on my forehead from where they screwed the Halo in or on??
And then the joy of Whole Brain Radiation, now that was fun.
I don't miss my tumor, I'm glad its gone thanks to Dr.Chen and his amazing skills.
The steroids gone, and so are about 30 lbs. thank god!
So I'd say about another 25 lbs will be about right, I'm walking every day and for the most part I feel pretty good.
Just Glad to be here!
Time will tell, next Brain MRI June 13
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Ummm. . . .
It's been how long since my last post?
Way to long.
I'm still here and doing good.
It's just been crazy around here, March was like the month of drs. and tests, and then Eric lost his job after 30years...(the business closed)
Hannah is almost done with her freshman year, and water polo has been? well interesting to say the very least.
But back to me, because hey...it's all about me :P right?
So I had a nasty UTI, didn't even know I had it, back ached all the time, my FP thought it might be bone mets and wanted me to have a body scan, but alas! I just had one in March and all was clear! GO ME!!!!
Next brain MRI is in June, and I am expected things to be good.
I've lost 25 lbs since I'm off those friggin steroids. YAY...so it's 25 and counting, a work in progress.
I'm still not working, I'm on disability.
Am trying to walk every day to get my strength and endurance up, so like I said, all is good and I am grateful, especially as I am approaching the end of the May and My one yr brain tumor..Hello I'm in your head, let me out or I'll kill you.
so yeah I've got a lot to be thankful for.
Well that's it for now
Way to long.
I'm still here and doing good.
It's just been crazy around here, March was like the month of drs. and tests, and then Eric lost his job after 30years...(the business closed)
Hannah is almost done with her freshman year, and water polo has been? well interesting to say the very least.
But back to me, because hey...it's all about me :P right?
So I had a nasty UTI, didn't even know I had it, back ached all the time, my FP thought it might be bone mets and wanted me to have a body scan, but alas! I just had one in March and all was clear! GO ME!!!!
Next brain MRI is in June, and I am expected things to be good.
I've lost 25 lbs since I'm off those friggin steroids. YAY...so it's 25 and counting, a work in progress.
I'm still not working, I'm on disability.
Am trying to walk every day to get my strength and endurance up, so like I said, all is good and I am grateful, especially as I am approaching the end of the May and My one yr brain tumor..Hello I'm in your head, let me out or I'll kill you.
so yeah I've got a lot to be thankful for.
Well that's it for now
Monday, January 17, 2011
Yes. . . .
it's been a while.
I just really haven't had much to say, sometimes I am just tired of thinking about Drs. and how I feel and everything else.
And there is so much going on right now and I don't want to think about or talk about or write it.
The gift that keeps on giving really seems to be the radiation though.
I used this little scrubbie thing on my head, because my hair..or nubs... keep me up at night. Sounds strange but it rubs on the pillow and my head hurts. . .
Anyway I seemed to have lost most of what I thought was hair growing back.
I mean if it was attached, you couldn't rub it off. Right??
I just really haven't had much to say, sometimes I am just tired of thinking about Drs. and how I feel and everything else.
And there is so much going on right now and I don't want to think about or talk about or write it.
The gift that keeps on giving really seems to be the radiation though.
I used this little scrubbie thing on my head, because my hair..or nubs... keep me up at night. Sounds strange but it rubs on the pillow and my head hurts. . .
Anyway I seemed to have lost most of what I thought was hair growing back.
I mean if it was attached, you couldn't rub it off. Right??
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