Too much to say today just trying to get myself together so I can feel better. I am impatient with myself and it took my husband and my friend Aiko to remind me that I just had brain surgery and I should not be so hard on myself. I felt bad because I made plans for lunch and had to cancel. I feel shitty doing this to people but I just wasn't feeling good. I need to be around others but it is so hard to make plans in advance. Just really sucks and I just have to give my self time and not make plans just yet, I don't know.